OVER THE TOP

How much I hate him
Even if just to see his face
And listen to his voice
Smell his perfume from the distance
And I feel sick of myself for always pretending in front of him
As is nothing wrong in our relationship
As is everything okay.

I hate him in every breath I take,
In every pulse of my blood
In every beat of my heart
How could him act like a PMS woman?
So selfish & careless to another’s feeling

All he can do is just complaining
Always comparing to the past
How can be the past same with today?
How dare him ask me to be another.
Does he think that everybody is the same w/ him ?
Just take me as I am, and please stop complaining
Am I his marionette, damn, who always have to listen his order?

It make me feel fake
It make me feel sick
When I have to keep my attitude on him
While all I want to do is scream & punch him on his face
Such a poor me who can freely express what’s on my mind.
I hate myself for being so powerless.
Wish that someday I will gain that power to revenge on him
But what for, anyway?
It will make myself dirty just by having feeling (even angry feeling) on him
I already feel so fool when I think of his words.
I should just ignore it.

But it will take no longer anymore
It’s already over the top of my head,,,
My heart,,, my feeling,,, my patient.

You will lose me soon, dear, I will make it happen
No matter what will you say to me
Even if you’re on your knee
I can convince you that
It will be your eternally regret.